<joel> These days are so long
When you have no ways
Of getting your social needs
Out on those end-of-week days
Though I'm luckier than most
No drugs, no sex, no booze
Am I missing out on the experiment
Or are they the ones who lose?
Can I live happily
As a kid in my situation
Or am I doomed to trying
Striving for that sensation
Trying to be accepted
Trying to always be out
Trying to be called and loved
Trying to lose my mouth...
Am I out of the big picture
Or do I know so little
What is it like to be there
Could I crack that riddle
Friends, do they love me
Am I popular and hot?
Why don't they call me back
Will they call me or will they not
Can I live happily
As a kid in my situation
Or am I doomed to trying
Striving for that sensation
Trying to be accepted
Trying to always be out
Trying to be called and loved
Trying to lose my mouth...
And is it love?
Am I good-looking?
Why do I not feel good?
Phone is dead, no one's booking...
Tell me, just tell me why I'm lost
Tell me, just tell me if I'm missing something
Should I step back and die
Am I trying for nothing?
Oh and if you only knew
How easy it was for you
Is there something I can do?
Can I pop one pill or two?
Oh...
Can I live happily
As a kid in my situation
Or am I doomed to trying
Striving for that sensation
Trying to be accepted
Trying to always be out
Trying to be called and loved
Trying to lose my mouth...
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<joel> hey all! it's friday and I've finally found a way to access the internet from school!! thank God, being the... deprived child I am! frig! haha anyway I'll post sometime during the weekend for ya'll, but for right now, here is my friday five, that's actually on a FRIDAY for once!! sweeeet!
1. Name five things in your refrigerator.
Uhhh... well I'm in a family of 5 so there aren't many "fixtures," but there's usually a jar of miracle whip, mustard, milk, cheese, juice... annnd the list goes onnnn.
2. Name five things in your freezer.
Bread, meat, ice cream, rolls, a shrimp ring from last x-mas... yikes
3. Name five things under your kitchen sink.
POISON! ahahaha ya but comet, uhhh electrosol, diswasher-powder-stuff, annnnd yeah after that it's anyone's guess, there might be a dead body down there for all i know
4. Name five things around your computer.
signs, cds, discs, printer, light.
5. Name five things in your medicine cabinet.
tylenol, advil, tampons (mine, of course), shampoo, dimetapp.
aiight every1, enjoy and have fun!
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<joel> ahhhhh fuck little children CLOSE YOUR EARS AND EYES cuz I'm gonna fuckin rant 'til the fuckin SUN COMES UP. aiight well first and most impotantly it's my parents - now you can tell me all this shit about how I'm lucky to have nice, financially stable and good parents - and I know that - but listen to this. don't wanna sound like the poor little sad child with 'nothing' here, but ahhh... yeah, I don't get the computer during the week. at all. come the weekend, I can hardly get it, because there is NO computer on saturday, sunday, or any other holiday from 12-6. yeah. so I mean I doubt your parents are as strict, but my parents are reallllllllllllllllllllllly strong with their 'disciplinary action.' my dad has a temper, ok? and yeah he can blow up and he can/will use physical discipline. use this info with your own conscent, but really I'd rather it not be repeated. sooooo if you're ever wondering why I don't really stand up for myself with the rents as much as I should... well now ya know. but that happens rarely and it's nothing severe. but yeah - the point remains, y'know, my parents are strong with their discipline yet touchy when I fight back. look, I'm a fuckin 15-year-old, almost 16. do they really think I'm just gonna fuckin smile and go along with EVERY little thing they do??? yeah well I've had just about enough of it and if I rebel and get in shit or have to walk all over the same fuckin streets all the time I WILL. so deal with it... i'm fuckin pissed. anyway, yeah... my cousin is over... no offense, but my 'personal space' is preeeeetttty touchy, and I have a hard enough time as it is with Tom-ass McFatAss in my life, but I've grown up and I don't really enjoy my cousin's company as much as I should. frig, the guy lives in Chipman, a small town about 45 mins away from freddy-town. me? I'm a street-smart city boy. yeah, you heard me, street smart, wanna fuckin oppose me on that one? yeah, didn't think so. and yeah... I'm having to shut the window every 5 minutes just because him and my bro come in chuckling like retards trying to see what I'm typing... "Sure! Come see, you two are in this one!" hahaha aahhhhhhh no. anyway speaking of my cousin I had to break off some plans to go see a movie with him and my fat brother. -sigh-. The School of Rock was an awesome movie, there's no going against that, and I saw some peeps I didn't expect to see there, which was very cool, buuuuuut the point remains, I had to go see a movie with my loser cousin. yaaaaaayyyy thanksgiving. anyway... I did nothing last night but talk on the telly and watched a nice english 'football' (ah, Belfast) flick by the name of "Bend it Like Beckham." niiiiiice movie. wholesome, everyone wins situation, happy, light conflict, yeah yeah all of dat but it still is a good movie. wait... wtf... they're in the kitchen, those two 'tards, EATING PORRIDGE - it's fucking 10:00 at night! I swear, tom's gonna be a fat fat nasty old man mooching off me 15 years down the road... dear Lord. anyway yeah! happy thanksgiving to all, may we all... not show the fact that we splurged more then necessary over the weekend... eh heh heh... oh, and a shout to becky! haha won't say why, but um... ;-) yeah! later all, have a good one, thanks for reading.
Pissed in my house,
Venturing elsewhere with maturity and independance.
P.S. don't repeat this shit to yo mama or n e 1 else, damnit!!!!
</joel> <!--09:54-->
<joel> hey all everybody - I can't post for long because my mom's out and there's apparantly no computer from 12-6 on weekends, and no computer at ALL during the weekdays. thanks mom and dad! ahhhhhh crap they're home - I'm doomed!!!!!!!!!!! later </joel> <!--02:56-->
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